Does anyone else get that ughhh feeling in the pit of your stomach when August rolls around? I swear I have had it for as long as I can remember, always dreading the time when carefree summer days come to an end and it’s time to go back to reality. Even though these days I have no “summer break,” the feelings of excitement and anticipation still come in June, followed by the slump of August.
Over the years, I’ve typically been able to attribute this time to something going on in my life: in perfect irony, my first two years post-grad landed me a new job in September of 2014 and then 2015, and last year I had just moved to a new city and was adjusting to my same job (holla praise!) in a completely different environment. But this year, everything is essentially the same (sans T. Swift releasing a song that I’m really just not sure about) and yet, there are just some days that don’t feel joyful — they just feel, well, ughhh.
What is different about this year than in the past is that I truly feel that my spiritual life is in a great place right now — I never want to be complacent in that, but I’m so grateful for all that the Lord is teaching me during this time, and what has become so clear to me during this monotonous month or so is that God’s answer to my prayers for sanctification means that some days are really, really tough. And rightfully so.
There are some days when I don’t feel like being my best. I don’t feel like doing or saying the right thing, or eating the right food, or working to make myself into the best person I can be. Some days are tough simply because they are dull. Some days are tough because it doesn’t feel like we’re any closer to the end goal. I feel like those days have been strung really close together the past few weeks, and sometimes that discourages me.
But when I wake up in the morning, read my Bible and pray to the Lord, every once in a while there is a moment like the one that has come to me as I’m writing these words — a light bulb in my brain that helps me to remember that some of God’s greatest works are often born out of these “some days.” It’s not the first time they have come, and it’s certainly not the last.
As I’ve really started asking myself what my goals and dreams are in this particular stage of life, I’ve clearly started to see that patience is key to all of them. That is without a doubt the Lord’s craftsmanship, knowing exactly how my heart needs to be trained – so throughout this time, I’ve held tight to a saying that ties back to Daniel 3 and has stuck with me: “And if not, He is still good.”
Some days are simply hard (and don’t make for great blog posts :)), but the Lord is faithful. Take heart, friends.
+ leaving you with a few pictures from recent mini-adventures of ours! Enjoy!